My ego took a mega huge blow today. It’s easy to live in denial, to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear on something unpleasant. And so sometimes, when someone says something to you thats so very blunt yet so very true, it’s hard to accept. Especially when it touches on something so sensitive and so personal, like how a person looks.
I admit, I have never been model thin. And yes, I have grown a little more horizontal over the past year without my realizing until its rather obvious now.
So yes, while I wish the world could be less superficial, and I wish that people could see that there is more to me than meets the eye, the fact is… that the world IS superficial. And the world is always always going to judge a person first on how they look. Heck, even I’m superficial ok?
So ya lar, I may a nice sweet person and all and a guy may really like me for those qualities, but it also doesn’t hurt if I look hot to boot, right? (Guys, admit it!)
I know, people tell me that I shouldn’t let this get to me, and that I should love myself no matter how I look. But the world is always going to like pretty beautiful things. And yes, you can argue that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. True. But beauty, to a large part of the population’s eye right now feels that beauty = slim and toned.
Oklar… my ego is megaly bruised. But I can’t blame anyone but myself. For it is I who let my eating habits go astray. It is I, who didn’t put in enough effort at the gym. And it is I, who failed to change my mindset and my thinking. So now, its time for me to face reality…and do something about it!